I am having one of those days... ever had one? I am starting to feel like I am fading in a sense. I think that I know that something is wrong on account of that I am starting to look forward to work at the Montessori school. Not to say that it is horrible, but i mean... it is definitely a challenge. Lately, things just haven't been going my way i guess, and i am the type of person who tends to throw a bitch fit when things necessarily do not go my way. I know i am being vague right now, but i am thinking whether or not i should start pouring out my problems out on a public website... probably not a good idea but i will spill over the basics for you. These, problems of mine, well, it seems as though they will not go away. You see, I am supposed to leave Montana in about 4 weeks, and I have been here, against my will, for about a year now. It hasn't been much fun but I am actually not as excited as I always thought that I should be around this time, I think that I am getting pretty confused about it and for once... and those who know me this will be epic, but i think that i was wrong about almost everything that i once fought for. It is hard for me to look back at something and think about it and admitting that i was wrong. What was wrong specifically you might be wondering? well, to tell you the truth, i would need to create an entirely new blog just to talk about that because it wasn't just one thing, i was wrong about tons of things... and i do not feel like that i need to talk about that on here. If you really want to know, contact me... the number to where I am staying is (406)-756-0111. I would actually be very happy if I got a random call from somebody asking me what i thought was wrong... it would probably restore my hope and faith in society a little bit. My advice to those who are as stubborn, or tenacious, (this is what i called myself when i didn't want to accept that i was stubborn, it has a much better ring to it, don't you think?) but back to my advice for those who are as stubborn as me, swallow your pride because it just isn't worth the fight... and think about it, other than your pride, what are you fighting for? unless there is some joy you get from pissing people off and being difficult... (which i tend to enjoy myself sometimes... especially when i am in a bad mood.)
But anyways, every time winter comes around i get into sort of a comatose mood and my body slows down... and being here it Montana only exemplifies that state....
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haha, do people actually call you? well everyone gets into that "grey" mood during winter. Springs just around the corner.
ReplyDeleteSome people read, people you wouldn't expect. It's rare for me to be so intrigued by someone I don't really know. I hope things are going well for you in Portland. I wish I knew what you were fighting for and what you felt you were wrong about. But I don't think I'm ready to take your advice and swallow my pride.
ReplyDelete...so two big men took you to montana? rehab or something?
Postscript: it seems you don't check this often anymore. But I hope you do, and I hope you respond, this could be interesting. and for the record you know me but you don't know me.
Well, hello. Yeah, for some reason the anonymity doesn't seem to make sense in this situation... but okay! However, I think that if you send me an e-mail this will be much less creepy. Now that I think about it, this would make a great plot for a new fiction novel maybe?...
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